Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Somewhat Liberated

The deed has been done and I handed my notice in.

Unfortunately I recieved an email whilst away from the accounts dept at work notifying that bonuses would be paid in with our July and not our June salary. major bummer. so I thought I may as well go for it on the monday. I felt sick to the stomach all day at bitchfaces reaction, then at 4.15 I knew it was now or never.

Surprisingly enough she cried....and took it all very well....and told me I'd be missed maybe she's glad to get rid of me?!

Oh well I hope I get a nice leaving present!!!

p.s I'm going to see Stevie Wonder tonight with LLB and MEGA excited!!! and hopefully there will be some more interesting posts soon.

Sunday, 13 June 2010

The Countdown Begins...

The countdown to handing the notice in continues....and I'm beginning to get a bit nervous. ooooo. One and a half days left this week at work and then there is the decision: after my 2 weeks off, I come back on the monday (pay day and bonus paid in day). Do I

1) hand my notice in on that monday???

2) wait until the tuesday, so I dont look like I'm just waiting for my pay and bonus (which really I am)???

and then there's the resignation letter..... Going to have to do some research on that one but I welcome any suggestions!

Thursday, 10 June 2010

They Don't work

I was still struggling to get the right paperwork sent for my Spanish police check - this time the photocopy of my passport wasn't signed/stamped by a solicitor. Fine I thought, I can get LLB to get one of the guys at work to do it but no, they don't know me so won't do it.
Having never had to use a solicitor yet in my life for anything, I called my dad for some advice.

Now when horse and I were together, our parents got on really well and his dad ended up doing a lot of legal work for my dad's business, my dad still uses him and I think you can gather where this is going.

The last time I was in that office was A level results day - he had a bucket of champagne on ice waiting for us both :) A bag of nerves I went in then, waiting to open our results in front of him. This time I was a bag of nerves as well....nervous to see him again after so long, and to see the pictures on his wall of all the family.

He didn't really mention horse, and as much as I wanted to ask him everything about what he was up to, if he had a girlfriend, what she was like, I held back. He gave me a big hug as I left. I sat in my car, and cried. I cried because all the time that I was in there talking to him and getting the signatures and stamps, I could see the picture on his desk of horse and I realised that I still really missed him. But why??? why why why after everything that went on and why when I'm happy with LLB?

Since then every night I have been dreaming about him.....and it's really thrown me in my tracks

Sunday, 6 June 2010

No Regrets

So that was me bringing you up to date with my current relationship status. LLB and I have been together now for 4 years (on and off). which is quite scary to think of being with someone for that long. and I do stress that it was very much on and off for a while. The off leading me to date a really wanker (i was on the rebound), and then get back with LLB again.

Now, if you have read my earlier posts you will have read about horse. My first boyfriend and only other time I'd been in love - my first love really actually. Despite it all ending, and the awkward stages thereafter, I couldnt help but accept his friend request on facebook a while ago and yes, I did set my settings so he could only see the albums I looked decent in and did censor my relationship status from him. However when you live in a smallish town and have a lot of mutual friends, word does get round of each other current status. If there's nothing worse than having friends, male or female, telling yo you're making a mistake with your current love interest, it's probably having your ex telling you this....and being right. Whilst I used to get a kick out of him knowing I was seeing someone else, I was always curious to know if his regular texts were generally out of concern or jealousy, and would always get that lump in the throat when the love intrest would start going skewiff, thinking he was right.

I'd probably say that right now things are going really very well with LLB. It's been ages since our last argument and I do feel quite in love. He even stayed my friend after me getting frightfully drunk at a wedding last night, falling down some stairs, and blaming him for pushing me. Love? He paid for a taxi for us to the other side of london, just so I could visit primrose bakery and couldnt face the tube hungover. Love?

But last week something happened that has really thrown me somewhat and is constantly in the back of my mind...